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In What I Had Before I Had You by Sarah Cornwell, a woman must face the truth about her past in this luminous, evocative literary novel of parents and children, guilt and forgiveness, memory and magical thinking, set in the faded, gritty world of the New Jersey Shore.
Olivia was only fifteen the summer she left her hometown of Ocean Vista. Two decades later, on a visit with her children, her nine-year-old son Daniel, recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder, disappears. Olivia's search for him sparks tender and painful memories of her past--of her fiercely loving and secretive mother, Myla, an erratic and beautiful psychic, and the discovery of heartbreaking secrets that shattered her world.
Reviews (4)
Publisher's Weekly Review
The "you" in the title of this psychological mystery debut refers to children, not partners. In Olivia Reed's case, what her mother Myla had before she had her were stillborn twins, infant ghosts she's told will follow her through life. But ghosts take different forms as the novel unfolds: are they spirits of dead children, as professional "psychic" Myla insists? Or are they the teenage girls that Olivia begins to "see" when she is 15, believing herself the inheritor of her mother's gift? Are they dead souls come of age, her living sisters, or mad hallucinations? The answers shift as the narrative switches back and forth between the summer of 1987, when Olivia was an adolescent, and the present, when she's traveling with her two children, Daniel and Carrie, after her divorce and revisits her hometown of Ocean Vista, N.J. In this haunted place, "the locus of [her] guilt," she loses nine-year-old Daniel, who is bipolar, on the beach. His disappearance drives the narrative forward, but what's more captivating is Olivia's relationship with her beautiful, unbalanced mother and its parallels with her relationship with Carrie, as well as Olivia's ruminations on the meanings of mental illness. "What I had before I had you" are hidden pasts, leaving indelible traces. Depth of insight, dreamy prose, and an engrossing storyline mark this wonderful debut. (Jan.) (c) Copyright PWxyz, LLC. All rights reserved.
Kirkus Review
The magic of madness or the sobriety of sanity--if you had to choose, could you? Twenty years ago, Olivia fled Ocean Vista, fled her psychic mother, fled her betrayed friends. Now recently divorced, she has come home with her teenage daughter, Carrie, and her 9-year-old son, Daniel, in tow. Like Olivia, Daniel struggles with bipolar disorder. Her husband could live with Olivia's battle but not Daniel's. But Daniel disappears, and as Olivia searches for him, she must confront the ghosts of her past, which lead her back to the summer when she left her mother. Always a loner, Olivia never fit in. At home, her mother, Myla, charted the ebb and flow of her energies, read fortunes and spun a fantasy world in which her twin daughters--daughters who were stillborn in 1971--lived on, forever babies. Sometimes Myla disappeared for a few days. Yet life with brilliant, adventurous, unpredictable Myla sparkled with excitement. The summer of 1987, however, changed everything. While swimming, Olivia saw her sisters for the first time as teenagers, not babies. Myla ignored the vision, which prompted Olivia to grab her camera in search of photographic evidence. Eventually, she did find her sisters again, only to have them run off. Yet they led Olivia to a new group of friends, including Kandy, the charismatic leader of the Emerald Crowd; Pam, who painted Olivia into the clique's mural; and beautiful Jake. Delighted to finally belong, Olivia was dangerously untutored in the ways of friendship. The quest to find her sisters soon unearthed dark family secrets, which shredded her relationship with Myla. Only the search for Daniel can heal the still-raw wounds. Gorgeously crafted, Cornwell's tale shimmers and shimmies with nimble dialogue and poignantly flawed characters. Grafting magical thinking onto gimlet-eyed acceptance, Cornwell's debut novel enchants.]] Copyright Kirkus Reviews, used with permission.
Booklist Review
*Starred Review* Leaving behind a failed marriage, Olivia returns to visit the Jersey Shore neighborhood in which she grew up. She has not been back in decades, reluctant to face the demons of her past. Now she visits with her children on their way to begin life anew in New York. Shortly after their arrival, though, her son, Daniel, recently diagnosed with early-onset bipolar disorder, vanishes from her side. The ensuing search through the haunts of her adolescence brings back painful memories of growing up with her psychic fortune-telling mother and the revelations that drove her to leave home at 15. But confronting the past may give Olivia what she needs to face the future. Cornwell's first novel is an authentic and artful coming-of-age story that is uniquely multigenerational. In lyrical language, she renders a turbulent adolescence that is achingly believable and a heartfelt tribute to the struggles of mental illness. Readers are kept on their toes as Olivia's story, by turns endearing and suspenseful, unfolds and the search for Daniel drags on. With great attention to detail and a smooth flow between past and present, this emotionally charged narrative is as memorable as it is compelling.--Ophoff, Cortney Copyright 2010 Booklist
Library Journal Review
"Sex is only a flea in the fur of love, which is a magnificent tiger, but that love, like a tiger, will kill you fast." This is an early introduction to life for preadolescent Olivia, offered by her charismatic but erratic mother, Myla, who claims to be psychic. Enduring a rather confused existence in Ocean Vista, NJ, Olivia must hold everything together until the oft-disappearing Myla resurfaces, sometimes many days later. But one particular summer, Olivia exhibits her own eccentric behavior. This family history novel, rich in images, moves back and forth between Olivia as a troubled youth and Olivia, 20 years later, as a divorced mother traveling back to Ocean Vista with her two children. Uneasy about her new single parent status, she finds herself dwelling on details of her past, momentarily taking her eyes off her bipolar nine-year-old son, Daniel, who vanishes. As Olivia and her daughter begin their search for Daniel, Olivia's memories of her decidedly dysfunctional family combine with flashes from her unhappy, unstable adult life. Verdict This is a remarkable debut by an award-winning short story writer; Cornwell's psychological study of the stormy relationships in one particular family is engrossing and insightful.-Andrea Tarr, Corona P.L., CA (c) Copyright 2014. Library Journals LLC, a wholly owned subsidiary of Media Source, Inc. No redistribution permitted.
